Start of the week and still confused.

In case you're wondering, I'm still confused after the last post. My confusion is not helped by the fact that I get random phone calls really early in the morning from the person I'm talking about. I guess they're thinking about me too huh? Or maybe they're in love with me too but circumstances just don't allow it? Here's to hoping - says the ever optimist.

It's the beginning of the week and random things keep happening to me. For instance, I was sat at a bus stop eating a sandwich. Out of no where, this tramp came and asked if he could have a bite. I looked at him directly and said NO. Why the hell did he not ask me for some change which I would have gladly given him? The other random thing was the massive punch up in the library in Clapham. Users fighting over a PC - can you imagine? What the hell is the world coming to?

On another note, I have loads of application forms to complete by the end of the week. So that should keep me busy and out of trouble.

No booze for two weeks now. I think it shows. My posts are becoming more and more boring.

confused.com

Is it wrong to fall in love with a friend's boyfriend? The facts are as follows:

1. I met the person before they did
2. We had sex before and during their relationship (my bad - shit happens. Anyway God forgave me)
3.They've since broken up (much to my delight. It was a shit relationship)
4.This person rings me nearly everyday (I really love hearing the person's voice)
5.I think about them all the time (not good because they keep me awake at night)
6. We're still in touch even though the ex thinks we're not (not a bad thing necessarily)
7. Everyone suspects something's gone on between us.

I just don't know what to do. Perhaps I should just let this one go. Going there might open a can of worms.

Oh confusion confusion. Don't you just hate it?

Happy new year!

For some strange reason, I feel this year has begun with new inspiration and determination. Feelings I didn't at all have at the beginning of last year. The year gone by was hopeless and filled with despair. Perhaps I feel it is time to make some changes. Changes I feel are much needed in my life e.g. gone are the days when drunken antics were the norm. Nowadays my evenings are calm and filled with lots of hot chocolate. Vauxhall doesn't feature much in my life either. I last went there last August. It's an area in London that's lead to many people's down falls. Therefore it is to be avoided. That said, people as individuals must learn to take responsibility for their own actions. Vauxhall and the many bars it has does not force people to behave the way they when they're there.

So here's to 2012 and all that it brings.

Slow beginning.

This is a random entry.

I am eating my words and doing something I always said I would not do.

However, that said, this presents a new beginning for me. It's been a slow start. Like all new enterprises business is slow at the beginning. I hope it brings the same success it's brought some really close people.

There are aspects of this business that I find terrifying. All will turn out well - in Jesus name. I have to believe in myself and also believe that my life has purpose. Doing what I'm doing now is bringing back the purpose in my life which was somewhat derailed.

Now I'm beginning to look forward to the future again.

The year so far,....

It's going really bloody slow. Nothing seems to be taking off so far. It could be that I'm just impatient.

For most people, the year seems to have gone off with a bang. I'm still waiting for that bang.

Busy busy busy bee

Goodness me! At one point I was an avid blogger. Thinking about it I know the reason why that was. I was bored at work most of the time so I decided to use the time creatively. Since I left, I've mainly temped. All the other time I'm just to busy having fun or researching what business to start running. I have options. Many options. Too many that perhaps I feel confused. I'll be glad when I make my mind up.

Still breathing just about

Hello all,

It's been months and months. Despite the hiatus, the drama has never ceased. Some may consider me crazy but I sometimes love it. It's just too entertaining. More to follow. I'm in a more settled position to dedicate some time to more blogging.

Ciao for now.